So we just landed in a new town in Turkey and I wanted to combine that with a story idea I had a few months back. How when you look at life expectancy in months and you’re “of a certain age” your remaining time keeps looking like an almost empty glass.

This thought came to me when I was watching the video in the screenshot above. They also mentioned that we age rapidly twice in our lives … one being between 55 and 60. Which, brother and sisters, I can attest to. That was a serious change for me personally that I wasn’t ready for.

So anyway, I filmed all of the talking head stuff today and was planning on filling in the gaps with me doing things to actively prolong life and its enjoyment.

And then the phone rang, and I’m not sure how to deal with this.

My step-mom died this morning back on the east coast. She was 90 and frankly was ready to go. She died as peacefully as possible, so there’s that. And so I’m in Turkey trying to console family seven hours in my past, all the while trying like hell to figure out how to cut this trip short. We only have nine more days here and then a quick jaunt to Spain and an ocean liner ride home to the states.

But now … well, those logistics are a different story.

What I’m wondering is … can I or even should I incorporate a testimony to my step-mom in this video about .. well, exactly what I believe life is all about?

And I also don’t know why I’m posting this here, but I feel like if you’re a member then you care about what’s going on in this life of mine and can maybe offer some sound advice.

I’m thinking … hell, I don’t know what I’m thinking. She wasn’t a nomadic person at all. Quite the opposite of me, and yet she had a happy life in her own way. I need to ponder, but I do somehow want to share her story, even if she had zero understanding of what that would mean here in the online world.

I should probably not dilute her story with mine. Shit, my minds a waste right now.

Anyway, if you would do a kindness and keep a little room in your thoughts tonight for one Lucy Higgins. A woman who raised me, loved me, and who taught me a lot about who I needed to be. I’m going to miss you .. but I also know you were ready to reunite with the man we shared. M<y dad and your husband. I love you.